well, you're right... I should try it... If he says no there is always to escape the situation... I will move to South Africa or Japan then - as far away as possible!
I just have to grab all my courage together but I will try... Maybe tomorrow but definetely the next week! Okay, everything's okay, (I have to convince myself to calm down^^)... the ticket for the filght is payed - so: there's no way to turn back; I will and YES I CAN!